I remember the first time I heard the song, Help Me Find It, by Sidewalk Prophets. I remember the words resonating so deeply with our circumstances. I remember asking God to help me find it. I, of course, thought at the time, “finding it,” would mean more strength for the journey so that when Trey got healed on earth, we could adjust to the new normal. I had no idea what “finding it” would really mean, or what the “new normal” would really be.
Of course, the “it” is God’s Will and I just knew God’s will was going to be to heal Trey…but His will…finding “it”…was obviously different than what I thought. So…for the past several months (a little over 6 to be exact), God has been graciously helping me “find it.” So, I just wanted to take a moment and say thank you to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for helping me discover His will. This journey has been painful…overwhelmingly arduous…emotionally gut wrenching…but God has remained the same and has used incredibly hard circumstances to deliver Trey eternally, help my family to grow into the likeness of Christ, and bring glory to His name.
I know this journey is only just beginning in many ways, and there will be days I just flat grieve. I will never be the same person I was before. God is created a new Jeremy that has been to the pit of despair, but discovered that God met me there and is working things for incredible eternal good. I continue to cling to my life verses:
“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)
Here are the words to the song, I mentioned above…God, thank You for helping me, for never leaving or forsaking me…thank You for loving me through this. Thank you for delivering my son from sin and sickness. Thank you for the story YOU are writing through our lives. I love You Jesus! Thank you for helping me find it!
“Help me find it” -Sidewalk Prophets
I don’t know where to go from here
It all used to seem so clear
I’m finding I can’t do this on my own
I don’t know where to go from here
As long as I know that You are near
I’m done fighting
I’m finally letting go
I will trust in You
You’ve never failed before
I will trust in You
[Chorus:]
If there’s a road I should walk
Help me find it
If I need to be still
Give me peace for the moment
Whatever Your will
Whatever Your will
Can you help me find it
Can you help me find it
I’m giving You fear and You give faith
I giving you doubt
You give me grace
For every step I’ve never been alone
Even when it hurts, You’ll have Your way
Even in the valley I will say
With every breath
You’ve never let me go
I will wait for You
You’ve never failed before
I will wait for You
[Chorus]
I lift my empty hands (come fill me up again)
Have Your way my King (I give my all to You)
I lift my eyes again (Was blind but now I see)
‘Cause You are all I need
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